I don’t have much bookish content to share at the moment and felt like having a chat today.
I have been reading a lot, but mostly manga and big series for which I don’t feel like doing a full review would be that useful (for example, I think a lot of people have already given their opinion on the Harry Bosch series by Michael Connelly) and I’ve been travelling a lot so I thought I would do travel recaps soon of my weekend in Paris and vacation in Madeira. I also have a full review of the manga series After the Rain coming soon, I’m very excited about that because I devoured the series in 2 days and loved it so much!
I’m struggling with the blog’s visual identity and I feel like I want to separate bookish, movies/TV and manga content more with different visuals, but for now I haven’t found out how. I will work on that and I might change a few things, but we’ll see! I don’t want to pressure myself too much. But I also know myself: if the visual identity is not what I want, I keep obsessing over it and I’m not able to create content because I just feel like the quality is not good enough. So I’ll keep thinking about that.
I’m also struggling with the posting schedule, I personally don’t know when people will post during the week I just get their posts and videos in my feeds, but is it important to you? I was thinking I should do bookish posts on the weekend and manga/others during the week, but I think it’s not very convenient for me because I’m a mood reader and apparently also a mood writer. So maybe I’ll just go super random? What do you think?
I also feel like I’ve been struggling with finding time to read blog posts, I haven’t touched my WordPress Reader since early June. So I would like to catch up on that too, which means less time to create my own content. But I can’t wait to catch up on my favorite blogs, please don’t think I’ve forgotten about you guys!!
As you might know if you’ve read my previous posts, my husband just came back to Switzerland after 3 months in the US for work. If everything goes well he should stay until mid-November, then he will go on a volunteering trip then back to the US for work until January, hopefully for the last time but who knows? We’ve been in this long-distance relationship for almost 3 years now and it’s ok, we don’t struggle with it, but at the same time it would be good to finally get settled in Switzerland and be able to figure out how we want to plan the future! (｡♥‿♥｡) And of course it also means I have to take him into consideration, and maybe normally I would be on my computer all night watching YouTube and reading blogs, but now we might watch a movie together. So I will have to adjust but it’s so great to have him around!
Another big change is that our roommate will be leaving either at the end of August or mid-September. I’m really sad that she’s leaving because we got along very well and she was the perfect roommate! But at the same time it will be good for Kregg and I to be just the 2 of us in order to define how we want to organize our day-to-day life. The apartment is not big so for 2 it was perfect, and we manage pretty well with 3 people, but it will also be nice to have more space. It will also be good that the hubby can decide with me how to redecorate, because for now it’s 100% my choices, neither my roommate nor my husband have changed anything so it will be interesting to see how we can incorporate his tastes into our place.
And it will also be important to define how we will manage financially without the rent from our roommate. At the moment the hubby is on medical leave because he will get surgery on Tuesday, no big deal this time but he’s been struggling with more and more Type-1-diabetes-related issues (hands, eyes, feet) and he definitely needs to take care of himself. And all the medical issues mean less pay, the longer he has issues the less he will get, and it will just stop at some point unless he can get disability. The older we get…. haha I feel like an old lady.
And I have also been struggling with my own medical issues. Not much of an update since last time. My whole body is still quite painful, the doctors still don’t know why, and they still think it’s more of a functional issue than anything else. Which means no cure and no improvement, but also normally no worsening. I was really scared recently because I was struggling with more pain, tingling in the hands, irritability , numbness in the arms and legs, but it can apparently be due to the fact that I have a significant B12 deficiency. So it’s a relief to know that it’s probably not my main condition worsening. I’m taking a B12 nose spray now and it should get better within 3 months! I’m also going to see the neurologist tomorrow, just to make sure we can eliminate all the neurological theories. Then if it’s negative for that, we’ll be back to the current diagnosis of Chronic Pain Syndrom. I struggle the most at work because it’s difficult to tell your boss that you don’t feel good today, but there’s no reason. I feel like CPS is seen as a fake illness in the workplace, and my colleagues sometimes ask “so are you better now?” in a very nice way but no guys, I will just not get better. It’s very difficult to make them understand that.
Another thing I’ve been struggling with is my eating and drinking habits. When I met my husband, we would only see each other about 5 days every 2 months, so it was always a celebration. Now that he’s coming for several weeks each time to get surgery and spend his medical leave with me, we’ve unfortunately kept that habit and we live like we’re on vacation all the time. It means wine on the weekends and eating fun things every day. Except that my husband is broad and tall, and I’m on the smaller side (T＿T)
Also, his eating habits in the US and mine in Switzerland are very different in terms of portions, processed food, and basically everything. Plus he cooks SO WELL! And I love eating…. so I’ve been struggling because I’ve gained weight and since I’ve had an eating disorder on-and-off since I was 19, it’s not something I can just shrug off. So I decided that starting tomorrow (because it’s a Monday so why not) I will try to eat healthier (because when my husband says we’ve been “very good” and we’ve had pasta, pesto, bread and cheese, and yes a little bit of vegetables, I can’t agree with him) (^_<)～☆
I don’t want to go on a diet but I want to feel happy with my body and make sure I eat plenty of fruits and vegetables and not just the things I love (basically cheese, bread, pizza, and desserts). And of course I love to bake, I’ve been avoiding it since I was on my own but yesterday I gave in and made my first Key Lime Pie, it’s DELICIOUS!! I can’t process it (๑♡⌓♡๑)
One last thing I wanted to mention was that I watched an amazing video on Mangatube this week and I wanted to share it with you, it’s all about content creation, being yourself, not burning yourself out and I thought it was well-articulated, so interesting, and full of love and good advice. A lot of the themes spoke to me (and are also touched upon in this post) and I hope you have a few minutes to check it out because Shae is amazing and this discussion made me feel so much better.
That’s all for today, have a lovely Sunday!
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